Why do I do this?

I torture myself by looking at pictures I know that are just going to put my to tears. I was looking through Warped Tour pictures that my friends took. And now I'm crying my eyes out. I am forever drowning in my tears. So Ada couldn't find The Devil Wears Prada's tent, but it's fine. I thanked her on Facebook for actually being willing to do all those things for me. I hope she had a fabulous time.

And today is just another day. Travis isn't online. I don't know why I'm so surprised still. I highly doubt he'll ever stay on for more than five minutes anymore. Okay well I'm going to listen to Rock Kills Kid and read all the conversations Travis and I had when we were friends (I just pray that we still are). The five bands I absolutely want to see are The Devil Wears Prada, Before Their Eyes, and Relient K. Hah, it's no surprise they're all Christian bands! Christian bands are more inspiring to me than secular ones. But I love them both.

I was reminded again by an older friend of mine. It is about money. I took piano lessons for one year in eighth grade but then I stopped because we didn't have enough money. That and violin. I had to stop violin AND piano lessons because of financial issues. I never realized how bad it really was until couple weeks ago. My dad's looking for another job because he has a business of his own, but the market or whatever isn't doing so well. I don't want them to be stressed. I'm scared. Oh, and I feel the need to post the following because it is what gets me through each day.

"When you're in over your head, I'll be there with you. When you're in rough waters, you will not drown. When you're in a fix, it won't be a dead end. Because I am God. Your personal God. I paid a huge price for you. That is how much you mean to me." -Isaiah 13:2 (The message)