The longer he's gone,

the shittier the days are. Now I have an annoying sister, stupid father, and nagging and abusive mother. I'm already pissed off that I can't go to school because I'm going to Atlanta. And I have to play violin in Atlanta so I have to bring my violin, which pisses me off even more. I hate this. I want to be back in school. My family is being so bitchy. You know, just because your monthly gift has opened, doesn't give you a reason to act like an effing bitch. I am not being ignorant because most people who have theirs, are nice. Or well the people that I hang around. I'm not a bitch when I get mine. Why can't they control themselves?

Darn sister fighting everyone.

Don't blame other people if you lose your voice for Friday. It's your fault because you're the one that's yelling. My dad and sister are fighting. It's scary at first but then it goes on for like 20 minutes, so then I go on doing other stuff like blogging about it (still concious of the fight). They're fighting because my sister isn't getting any jobs. She believes after she does the interview that she won't get called back. She's lost hope and faith. She needs to turn to God. Or she needs to LISTEN TO WHAT HER PARENTS ARE SAYING. It's all beacuse of the failing economy that rips them apart. So tomorrow in NSL we're having an in-class party because it's Constitution Day. I'm bringing a bag of an assortment of chocolate bars and a bag jolly ranchers! I am stoked!

Right you are, friend.

Thank you for the crumbly piece of sweet happiness the other day. You really are “like fkn Santa Clause.” And it seems like Santa Clause has a little secret, wink wink.

Anyway, these have been the most amazing weeks of my life.
All my classes are very stimulating. I love my life right now.
These have been the most amazing weeks of my life, minus coming home.

Question of the day: Why oh whyyy do you, Leopold, have to be so meddlesome and ruin a clear day, everyday for everyone? Dare I say prying… And along with the whole nosy part, you seem to have a tight hold on things. Just let it go like you do with yourself, though you do not put yourself out there half the time.

Some days, such as recently, you have been fine and sunny. Such warm weather brings comfort. But today and yesterday it seems a lot of water has been condensed and turned into a storm. Not just any storm, there was lightning and thunder! I hope you don't get too sick. But God's sake, learn to bring a freakin' umbrella and protect yourself from this force you constantly deny to feel! You've been around for so long you dumb lard, why don’t you just fess up.

Oh and learn to start days off with a clean state and trust me, you'll feel a lot better and will not think about letting out thunder. Learn the routine. Yes, the clouds are always whispering to each other, but why do you pretend you’ve never heard them whisper? You don’t usually act this skeptical and paranoid. It really ties a knot in my neck when you question like those skeptics that are my flowers in a field, when the fact is the clouds were not slandering you at all. They were just minding their own business and attending this niche.

Effing bitch.

She always tries to trick me and make me think that I did something wrong when I didn't. I just made her a sandwich. She lied and said she felt like she was going to throw up. What a fucking lie. That bitch is just too lazy. Oh and she never eats anymore. So if she wasn't eating, that's probably why she felt like she was going to throw up. But seriously, I think something is seriously messed up in her brain. I feel bad for her. I get her toasted slices of whole wheat bread, with mustard on one slice and mayo on the other. I give it to her and she said "I told you to get pastrami." UM NO SHE DIDN'T. So then I got her her stupid pastrami, and then I give it to her. Then she says she wanted the sandwich cut in half. What the hell is the matter with her. ): I really think something is wrong with her brain. She has this weird memory loss and a condition (which I don't know what is called) that makes her thinks that she said something when she didn't. I don't know what the fuck is up with her brain. I think it's from not eating enough that fucks up her brain.

Offically PO'ed

OMGGG! URGH. I've reached a certain point of hate for my sister ever sine the chocolate incident. I'm so much better at violin than her. She's not a good teacher. There are so many simple ways to say things and she's always saying the complicated way. She doesn't believe that I can do things on my own. She doesn't know how to accept that fact that we are human. Humans make mistakes. We don't know everything and sometimes we have error in our thinking. It's human. Why can't she effing understand that. She's such a crumby, hack. She drives me up the effing way, freaking out. She tells me to do stuff that is easier for me to follow through with without making mistakes. Then when she sees what I have done, she flips out because it isn't what she expected and because she gets confused. Then she criticizes me. And in her argument, she tries to think up of anything to prove her point. And it's all over a little thing. She's way too serious and not fun. She's too much of a bitch. She brings things like being an artist and having creativity into a situation that has in no way, any relation to what we're talking about.

But it's fine now. I've decided and accepted that there are two kinds of people in the world. One: People who are always hot and nauseated all the time, that they being angry for no reason, and who let little things get to them. Then two: People who are cold, try to fit in, and just do whatever to get the spotlight off of themselves. Whenever when I'm with my sister I always end up feeling bullied at the end. It might start off smoothly, but then it just goes down and down. My hate for her keeps growing. I don't know how to stop it. That's why I try to stay away from her and not talk to her. My mouth is practically bleeding from holding all these things in while I'm in the midst of her. And I thank God for blogger and other sites where one can rant about the same thing over and over again, eventually establishing and making it fact that the truth drives one up the wall, and that what one is saying in fact, is true.

A Quick Rant

I might as well scream everything I say because if my sister doesn't hear it, or doesn't understand what I am saying, she will say "what?" DUDE, C'MONNNN! Jeez!! You don't need to hear everything.