After all

It's probably been like a whole month already since the last time I've seen a check mark. Those green symbols give me comfort on the cloudiest days. I need to hear the door open again. I need to hear the footsteps. I'm sick of hearing the footsteps of the past. They fool me and now I am the fool. This is not "killing" me as it used to, but I seriously don't want the time that I invested into this one situation, to go to a waste. I don't want to make the object in this situation to go down the drain. I don't want to act like it never happened. I abandon and isolated every other frequent visitor, for a visitor that rarely walks through that door. Every now and then I can hear the ghosts whispering to call it quits. But do I ever listen to them? Noooo! And I don't want to or ever plan to. Unless you call taking breaks and sleeping just to go back and wait even longer, listening to them, then I do not do that. So, I just confused myself. I do take breaks and sleep. But I always come back.